Now I know that I could (and have) just turn this over to God and tell Him that I'm willing to be obedient to Him and if He would make a medical miracle happen, then I'd love to have another child. The problem with that is that I'm still hiding behind the 'medical miracle' thing. To demonstrate how serious I am about giving it all back to God, I want to do everything I can to show that I really do trust Him to be in control. And that's why we've decided to have a tubal reversal, to do everything physically possible to place it all back into His control. Yes, I know that He is more than able to open my womb without the intervention of the doctors, but is it really faith without investing myself somehow?
We just want to obedient to His call on our lives, and for us that means making whatever adjustments that takes in order to have a tubal reversal.
We're giving over our finances completely to the Lord, tithing with joy, paying off debt and saving for the reversal (net cost upwards of $7,000). I'm totally giving over my weight, repenting of chasing after food more than God and determining to live a more healthy lifestyle. I'm giving up my independence, submitting myself to my husband's authority and to God.
If God says to do it, we want to be a family that says "Yes, Lord. Yes!"
So now we're praying for the Lord to show us how to proceed and trusting Him to provide the means for which we will eventually be able to pay for this operation!
So, really, it's a done deal!